saving all my love for a rainy day..

The city lights in Austin are seductive...

Her siren coaxes the inhibition buried deep beneath the surface of my morals. The skyline resembles christmas lights, tossed carelessly against the star-kissed backdrop that is the Texas sky. And just as soothing as a light's flicker against a pine, downtown Austin elicits a calmness in me that I have never felt before. Human nature? Call it whatever tickles your tongue. The songs of sixth street and south congress draw me from bed and into their bass filled bars; dress me in heels and silk or toss me to the streets in cutoffs and chucks - the scene is set for either. I have become hypnotized by the eclectic mix of electric music and LoneStar cans.


I came to this city to end my search for love. Fame. Success...all of the above. I came here hungry for change. I had exhausted all previous options of advancement in Phoenix - that city is dead to me. It was there that I found, and then lost, all of the pieces that I thought individualized me. It was there that I lost love, logic, and sanity. For the sake of saving the only thing I had left - my soul - I ran as far from the desert as my heart would take me. Like a stone, I tossed myself into the distance, skipped twice, and landed in Lady Bird Lake. The internal battle I was waging against myself very closely resembled teenage angst, I am well aware of this. But this war carried on nonetheless. Then, I found Austin.

It wouldn't be a stretch to say that I was looking for a honkey-tonk serenade to cure the apathy that became my life. Like all of those before me, I came to Austin to shed the skin of the boring, and lifeless person I had become. I don't know if it was the music, the beer, or the Texas sunsets - but Austin healed me. Taking my hand into hers, she filled me with the desire and the inspiration to tackle my life with verocity.

I have said it before, and I will say it again: Austin, you are my lover.